Surreal

Life has been constantly changing for me within the past year.

Graduation, ministry, family, and friends are areas of my life that have been changing dramatically. I was not the same person last Easter. That's for sure.

I can't wait to graduate, but school is getting heavy; and I'm praying that the Lord helps me kill the sin of slothfulness. TMS is around the corner, but I still need to apply. I'm praying and testing if the Lord has really, in fact, called me to the ministry. But that's what I'm working toward.

The Lord has been gracious enough open a preaching opportunity. Some of you guys know, so I don't need to elaborate. Just pray, k? Pray that I get MYSELF out of the text, and that hearts will cut to repentant shreds by the sword of the Lord. Nervous? Well, the sin is there. I'm asking the Lord to guard me against the extremes: self-reliance and arrogance. Give me humility, conviction, passion, and clarity so that I may not profane Thy name.

But oh man, I am excited to preach.

Yes, indeed, a lot has been changing.
For the better?
I should say so.

The Lord and His unceasing blessings have touched my life once again. I mean, it's at a point where, when I think about her, I pray and cry, "Lord, why did You give her to me? I don't deserve her. Lord, You didn't have to bless me, yet you did; so.. well... THANKS, WOHOO!!"

I've been given a huge opportunity to apply all this knowledge that I've been given. I just hope she understands how much I care about her and how much I want her to be holy. I want us to be holy together. I'm not looking for a flirtation buddy, I'm looking for someone have a Godly relationship with. You know why I want us to be holy? Because when we're holy, that's when we're most like Christ. When we're holy, that's when we are closest to God. When we're holy, that's when it's heaven on earth.

Excited? You bet I am (we are). People, it is SO possible to have a relationship that emulates the love Christ has for His beloved Bride, the church. It is possible for people to do it rightly (only by God's Sovereign Grace). Our desire is to model that, not for the purpose of show-boating, but for the purpose of God-glorifying.

Yes, we'll grow. We'll make mistakes, and we'll learn from those mistakes. We need that attitude of forgiveness because we know that sin is at the door, and so many have fallen to it. We pray for God's hand to deliver us from any and all temptation that may lead us to being disqualified.

I'm asking the Lord that He will see us through to the very end.

SO, how do I know this isn't relationship idolatry? Well, that's easy. You see, we both would have been satisfied with Christ if He had not given us this relationship. What I saw in this woman was a person who treasured Christ above it all. Beloved, that's where you derive your joy. Your joy isn't in marital status; it is in your relationship with a holy and gracious God who sent His Son to ransom you from your debt of sin.

That's how I know she isn't my idol. I'm loving God, which drives me to love her.

But hey, what do I know? We've only been together for a few days.... Yah, that may be true, but we do know what were suppose to do. God is not silent. He's given us the relational instruction manual. We just gotta read it and submit to it.

Can't wait for what's ahead. With uncertainty comes indescribable rest in a Sovereign God who will weave it all together for good.

Hey miss, if you're reading this, just wanna let ya know... I'm willing to work at this relationship if you are too. Let's hit the ground runnin'. WERE ROLLIN' NOW!! WE'RE ON OUR WAY!! Where we headed? Well, we're taking the sanctification train to holy town. You on board?

Let's glorify God TOGETHER in ways that we could not apart.

It's time to show the world a relationship that reflects the Gospel.
I'm game. Are you?

Oh, and by the way... if I haven't told you already... you were worth the wait.

- Micah


P.S. MAN, it's hard saying goodnight you.