Chance? No, Providence

You know what it is like to see an old friend? Yah, I'm not connecting this to anything. I literally saw an old friend tonight, and I was able to catch up with him. He was someone who I used to call my best friend.

Yah, I know... you're probably saying "Used to? Micah, what happened?"

Well, here we go...

Let's just go straight to it. In college, I lost all my friends. Everyone went their separate ways to different colleges and universities, and here was me--all by myself with no one to turn to. Now, it hurt losing all friends I grew up with, but it REALLY hurt losing this one friend. But here is the funny thing: we both went to the same college.

There is something about college that really puts people to the test. (Especially relationship wise). We would see each other on occasion, but it was clear that we were drifting apart. It seems as though both of us found no joy in what we were doing in the first couple years of college. However, when I got saved, I went on this holiness rampage. And I made a mistake that probably pushed him away. That was what I did not want.

I felt as though we were going separate ways. I was following Christ, and he was going down a road I could not follow.

So, it had been quite awhile since I last saw him, maybe even years. But I had always been praying for him. Now, I don't think that prayer a replacement for not reaching out to your friends. My downfall was letting go of our relationship, and I asked for forgiveness about that. Despite my mistake, I do not regret praying for this individual because it seems as though God may have answered those prayers.

God, in His sweet mercy, has allowed us to see each other once again. And that was tonight. I was able to play "catch up" with an old friend who has expressed a desire to be passionate about God. My prayer is that this would be the legitimate, genuine hunger for Christ that I had been hoping for.

I've been disappointed by too many people. I just want my loved ones to be saved. I just want them to treasure Christ above it all. I just want them to find unshakable joy in the steady Rock of Jesus when their entire world is crashing around them.

These "I just wants" are sounding a little selfish now. But I truly hope this is real. I'm praying that this is real. He knows he can't go at it alone--none of us can. I know I'm not smart. I know I have deficiencies. But I do care so much for his well-being. I care about his holiness. I care about his relationship with You, Lord. You think that's enough? You think he'll see that? I don't know... maybe. I just know that I'm not letting this opportunity slip. God, in His Sovereign will, had ordained this moment in eternity past. Hey Calvinists, we don't believe in chance remember? Maybe this IS the real deal. I can only hope and pray.

I hope this is legit. God, let this be legit.