Surreal

Life has been constantly changing for me within the past year.

Graduation, ministry, family, and friends are areas of my life that have been changing dramatically. I was not the same person last Easter. That's for sure.

I can't wait to graduate, but school is getting heavy; and I'm praying that the Lord helps me kill the sin of slothfulness. TMS is around the corner, but I still need to apply. I'm praying and testing if the Lord has really, in fact, called me to the ministry. But that's what I'm working toward.

The Lord has been gracious enough open a preaching opportunity. Some of you guys know, so I don't need to elaborate. Just pray, k? Pray that I get MYSELF out of the text, and that hearts will cut to repentant shreds by the sword of the Lord. Nervous? Well, the sin is there. I'm asking the Lord to guard me against the extremes: self-reliance and arrogance. Give me humility, conviction, passion, and clarity so that I may not profane Thy name.

But oh man, I am excited to preach.

Yes, indeed, a lot has been changing.
For the better?
I should say so.

The Lord and His unceasing blessings have touched my life once again. I mean, it's at a point where, when I think about her, I pray and cry, "Lord, why did You give her to me? I don't deserve her. Lord, You didn't have to bless me, yet you did; so.. well... THANKS, WOHOO!!"

I've been given a huge opportunity to apply all this knowledge that I've been given. I just hope she understands how much I care about her and how much I want her to be holy. I want us to be holy together. I'm not looking for a flirtation buddy, I'm looking for someone have a Godly relationship with. You know why I want us to be holy? Because when we're holy, that's when we're most like Christ. When we're holy, that's when we are closest to God. When we're holy, that's when it's heaven on earth.

Excited? You bet I am (we are). People, it is SO possible to have a relationship that emulates the love Christ has for His beloved Bride, the church. It is possible for people to do it rightly (only by God's Sovereign Grace). Our desire is to model that, not for the purpose of show-boating, but for the purpose of God-glorifying.

Yes, we'll grow. We'll make mistakes, and we'll learn from those mistakes. We need that attitude of forgiveness because we know that sin is at the door, and so many have fallen to it. We pray for God's hand to deliver us from any and all temptation that may lead us to being disqualified.

I'm asking the Lord that He will see us through to the very end.

SO, how do I know this isn't relationship idolatry? Well, that's easy. You see, we both would have been satisfied with Christ if He had not given us this relationship. What I saw in this woman was a person who treasured Christ above it all. Beloved, that's where you derive your joy. Your joy isn't in marital status; it is in your relationship with a holy and gracious God who sent His Son to ransom you from your debt of sin.

That's how I know she isn't my idol. I'm loving God, which drives me to love her.

But hey, what do I know? We've only been together for a few days.... Yah, that may be true, but we do know what were suppose to do. God is not silent. He's given us the relational instruction manual. We just gotta read it and submit to it.

Can't wait for what's ahead. With uncertainty comes indescribable rest in a Sovereign God who will weave it all together for good.

Hey miss, if you're reading this, just wanna let ya know... I'm willing to work at this relationship if you are too. Let's hit the ground runnin'. WERE ROLLIN' NOW!! WE'RE ON OUR WAY!! Where we headed? Well, we're taking the sanctification train to holy town. You on board?

Let's glorify God TOGETHER in ways that we could not apart.

It's time to show the world a relationship that reflects the Gospel.
I'm game. Are you?

Oh, and by the way... if I haven't told you already... you were worth the wait.

- Micah


P.S. MAN, it's hard saying goodnight you.

Lord, You didn't have to... but You did.

Thanks, by the way.

Like Christ loved the church.

It's funny how it takes another person to help you realize how selfish you really are.

Forgive me, Lord.

Chance? No, Providence

You know what it is like to see an old friend? Yah, I'm not connecting this to anything. I literally saw an old friend tonight, and I was able to catch up with him. He was someone who I used to call my best friend.

Yah, I know... you're probably saying "Used to? Micah, what happened?"

Well, here we go...

Let's just go straight to it. In college, I lost all my friends. Everyone went their separate ways to different colleges and universities, and here was me--all by myself with no one to turn to. Now, it hurt losing all friends I grew up with, but it REALLY hurt losing this one friend. But here is the funny thing: we both went to the same college.

There is something about college that really puts people to the test. (Especially relationship wise). We would see each other on occasion, but it was clear that we were drifting apart. It seems as though both of us found no joy in what we were doing in the first couple years of college. However, when I got saved, I went on this holiness rampage. And I made a mistake that probably pushed him away. That was what I did not want.

I felt as though we were going separate ways. I was following Christ, and he was going down a road I could not follow.

So, it had been quite awhile since I last saw him, maybe even years. But I had always been praying for him. Now, I don't think that prayer a replacement for not reaching out to your friends. My downfall was letting go of our relationship, and I asked for forgiveness about that. Despite my mistake, I do not regret praying for this individual because it seems as though God may have answered those prayers.

God, in His sweet mercy, has allowed us to see each other once again. And that was tonight. I was able to play "catch up" with an old friend who has expressed a desire to be passionate about God. My prayer is that this would be the legitimate, genuine hunger for Christ that I had been hoping for.

I've been disappointed by too many people. I just want my loved ones to be saved. I just want them to treasure Christ above it all. I just want them to find unshakable joy in the steady Rock of Jesus when their entire world is crashing around them.

These "I just wants" are sounding a little selfish now. But I truly hope this is real. I'm praying that this is real. He knows he can't go at it alone--none of us can. I know I'm not smart. I know I have deficiencies. But I do care so much for his well-being. I care about his holiness. I care about his relationship with You, Lord. You think that's enough? You think he'll see that? I don't know... maybe. I just know that I'm not letting this opportunity slip. God, in His Sovereign will, had ordained this moment in eternity past. Hey Calvinists, we don't believe in chance remember? Maybe this IS the real deal. I can only hope and pray.

I hope this is legit. God, let this be legit.

Yah, I'd Do it Again.. and Again and Again...

"I feel that, if I could live a thousand lives, I would like to live them all for Christ, and I should even then feel that they were all too little a return for His great love to me"

- C. H. Spurgeon

What manner of love is this? What kind of love is this?

... that God would save us and change us to be like His Son. I do not understand... Why would You, O Lord, love wretched men such as us?


"If you cannot trust God in the darkness, it shows that you cannot trust Him at all."

"Are You a Christian? Yeah, 'Cuz Everyone Else Is."

This was in the preface of a book I have. The book is a compilation of Edwards' sermons.

I thought it would be nice if I typed this paragraph out for you guys to read. Some interesting observations here. What do you think?

The Massachusetts colony assumed that all settlers were or should be Christian. In fact, it insisted, prohibiting immigrants who were Roman Catholic or otherwise outside the fold. At the beginning in particular, a good portion of the early settlers came to escape religious persecution. Their faith was vital and personal. After all, nominal faith is unimaginable in a persecuted church; instead they had become the established church, with all its attendant benefits, including power and the tax revenues collected to support the church. And in an established church, nominal faith becomes the norm (Sermons of Jonathan Edwards 2005).

How Do You Hang Something on Nothing?

⁷"He stretches out the north over empty space
And hangs the earth on nothing.
⁸"He wraps up the waters in His clouds,
And the cloud does not burst under them.
⁹"He obscures the face of the full moon
And spreads His cloud over it.
¹⁰"He has inscribed a circle on the surface of the waters
At the boundary of light and darkness.
¹¹"The pillars of heaven tremble
And are amazed at His rebuke.
¹²"He quieted the sea with His power,
And by His understanding He shattered Rahab.
¹³"By His breath the heavens are cleared;
His hand has pierced the fleeing serpent.
¹⁴"Behold, these are the fringes of His ways;
And how faint a word we hear of Him!
But His mighty thunder, who can understand?"

Job 26:7-14 NASB (Emphasis Mine)

If these are fallen fringes, I can't wait to see the real thing.