Can't Sleep

It's 7:19 AM and I've been up for an hour.

When there is a lot on your mind, you tend to lose sleep. And sleep was difficult. As I was attempting to rest, I was thinking about so many different things and so many different people. Some who are a great concern to me; others who are a great encouragement. But what kept me up last night wasn't just the people--it was the battle that was fought my mind.

Don't you hate it when you're in a tug-of-war with your flesh? Sometimes, the idols from your past, which you thought were gone, suddenly reemerge at the worst of times. They make an unwanted cameo in your head and the temptations of old seem to have returned to flirt with you once more.

My fear was that I would relapse into my old ways of thinking. Never do I want to go back to how I was before. God, in His lovingkindness, has given me a new nature. And with that new nature comes a new LIFE. The desire to sin is gone. My idols have been tossed to the flame. However, I still struggle with wanting to retrieve that old eye I "plucked out" so very long ago.

God, help me; for I am doing the very thing I hate.... by thinking the way I use to think.


Btw, Happy Lord's Day all... I hope you're at a church that teaches the bible.